When Pigs Fly

Signing off

Kaya nga ex kasi mali

2 years na pala pero parang kahapon lng

Nang iwan

Hanggang panagip ba naman papaasa ka pa

Will anything change if i decided to be by your side at that time? Im not that brilliant, not the sharpest tool in the shed. I had doubts that I could survive in the outside world alone. Going independent when Im already at my comfort zone. I already have a job and Im proud to say that I am a part of.If I took that risk, I wonder how my life would have turned out at this moment. I always have this mixed feeling. It doesn't feel like Im living my life at its fullest. Its not the same like when I had you. I was always this goal oriented type when I was with you, always planning and doing what we want to do. But now I feel like Im back to being a loner, back to my dark damp cage. I keep hearing people say that im just reading to it too much, or in due time etc. I get these enthusiastic remarks that doesn't feel that good at all. Sometimes I even feel offended at how easy people can give advices and can be smug about it, while the truth is they are not even doing that well in life, or had bad outcomes because of their shortcomings. Im living a life as boring as it gets. I used to write diaries and journals just because I feel good jotting it down. I haven't wrote anything since I was with you. I guess that's because I was happy at those times... Anyways this is just me trying to make myself feel better, just ranting and writing random thoughts. I know no one will actually read this and Im just talking to myself. I just hope it gets better just as people keeps on saying to me.

How to be happy

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