Heartless PAGE

If you ever find yourself in a place where you feel like you needed to prove yourself to people for them not to leave you, please respect yourself enough to walk away and just give all that love and loyalty to yourself instead.

You’re only going to be valued by some people for as long as you’re beneficial for them. Don’t lose yourself in the process of trying to prove your worth to others.

I am not gonna lie, sometimes I wish I could just disappear and never come back. I wish I could just run away from everyone. Everything makes me sad, and sometimes, I just want to disappear just so I could never feel anything. I realized that I am not okay all along, I am just moving with the flow of life. I am just trying to ignore the sadness that I feel inside. But at the end of the day, I still feel like dying with the sadness in my chest.

Sadness keeps me up all night. It haunts me everywhere. It visits me when I'm alone and it follows me whenever I'm with people. I am not gonna lie, sometimes I feel so sick of it. It's hard to be okay. And the truth is, I feel like I'm not going to be okay.

— Shiori X
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To the one who sleeps with a heavy heart.

I understand how hard it is to pretend that everything is okay.

I understand how it feels to be emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually exhausted.

And how draining it is to explain detail by detail.

I understand that you’re getting tired of trying so hard.

But as humans like you, you are surrounded by people who admire you for being strong, that they do not know your life is getting out of hand, too. And when you stumble it is hard to ask someone for a hand.

I want you to know that I’m proud of you for making this far and for being the ‘strongest’ person. But be honest when some days are a bit blurred and unstable.

Let your heart cry out, it’s okay to have a good cry.

Crying is not a sign of weakness but it is an act of surrender that you can no longer proceed alone and you are in need of someone stronger than you.

So cry your heart out, until one day, you’ll realize you’re no longer in pain and ready to receive joy and peace.

James 4:10

Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will exalt you.