Dear Diary , A Transgender Love story to herself.

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Dear Diary,
I know I said I won't post here anymore but I see this page is growing so I've decided I'm gonna continue here as well as everywhere else. So as you ok now I have created a successful talkshow called thecomeouttalkshow on YouTube and Facebook and Instagram and twitter and tictoc . Busy busy I've been . I've taken a social media training class and I'm still doing really good in all areas of my life. Except for one area.
Boys boys boys . Geeze I can't seem to get my love life right . Like I get to know guys. Then once I have a clear kind of them I'm so turned off . Perhaps I'm just looking for a reason to shut them out or maybe I'm just happy being single ( which I am ) I love my independence it makes me stronger. I don't need anyone approval to make decisions pertaining to me . Like the simple ones. What to eat for dinner . What to watch on tv. What music I want to play , even what I want to wear. It's the little things that . Matter. So coming in Feb . ( Not sure the date . ) But I will be launching and releasing The come out talk show presents Dear Diary, A Transgender love story to herself . Where I can talk about exactly what I'm posting here. So here I'll post the inside scoop for my loyal readers. Last year was so successful and peaceful . I'm now able to do all the things I've always wanted to do . Stay tuned . Xoxo 💋💋💋

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Dear Diary,

I'm like down for no reason . EVERYTHING is great for once in my life so why do I feel down 😢. Like a void is missing. I've managed to reach ultimate peace.
This s**t feels so good. No worries ☺️. No fear 😜.
No pain 😁. I spend lots of time with my self and for this reason I can say I love myself so much.

All my life I looked for the approval of other People. I've been good to people that didn't even deserve it . Loyal to people that i should have never been loyal to. People don't genuinely treat me how I treat them. It's always something about my interaction with them that won't allow me to let them in so to speak. Although I want too. I just can't . I've trusted so many in my life until I learned trust is earned . There are a hand full of people I trust on this earth.

One thing I can say about myself is I'm transparent but I move in silent . By the time I've made an announcement months have gone by and I do that bc people can't keep up with what I'm doing and offering me unwanted advice. But let the s**t hit the fan. Where are they then ? People blow me off alot. And I don't mean the good kind of blow 🍃 📴 off . Lol 😆😂😆

Like I can always tell when I'm like a last resort . Or I'm the friend you text last min you wonna hang .
Oh I'm bored ( so you decided to text me . Geee thanks ).. or the left of read message ( I hateeeeeee that ) ughhhhh 🥵🔥🔥🔥.

Like do I have a sign on my forehead that says "Fix ME" if I do. Allow me to apologize that shouldn't be there 😂.

And people talk down to me . Bc I ask questions. I ask questions bc most people are full of s**t.
You not gonna dance me around your little fairytale of a mind . No I'm going to ask questions so I understand what the F**k it is that you are saying . So people get frustrated with me it never fails thus using the word Stupid with me . Fastest way to Get your ass Kicked by me is to Look me in my Eyes and call or Ask me if I'm Stupid. ( To be continued)

And when you ask questions your now problematic especially if you have common sense I've learned in this life everyone does not have that common of sence 😒.

When you look at me I hope you see a strong individual . Someone with a heart of Gold. FULL OF LOVE... There's a reason why I don't engage with mean hateful people . Its not bc I'm afraid of them bc I'm really not. It's bc I rather not listen to that noise those type of people create it's distracting and serves no purpose for my journey or life to date 📅.

All buy myself I am having the time of my life make no mistake about it Yonce is doing just fine. All on her Own . It wasn't even scary to take this leap of On My own. AFTER ALL I realized I been doing it forever . The men I was with they didn't help do s**t . But take take take . Every relationship I've ever been in weather intimate or non intimate it was a take take take relationship . Mostly them take take taking from me.
So now I just give out the kindness of my heart . Not out of stupidity 😂😆😂😂.

I've learned so much about me myself and I . I can't wait to go on cruise 🥰 I have to Go on a cruise to the Caribbean. ⭐⭐⭐👍☺️☺️☺️😁😁😁😁😁📅🍨😉

Dear diary,

Today everyone knows exactly who I am and what I stand for .

My bio for The Come Out Talk show was released. .....

Have You Ever been in a place that you wanted to come out of ?. "I have". The Come Out Talk Show was created by Pink Princess Yonce. You may know her from The documentary with PaperTiger Tv HOme Coming QUEENS. Where she first appeared as a 16 year old Transgender young adult boldly confessing to the world who she really was. She continued educating the world by becoming an educator at just the age of 17 . She spoke at NYC's Hunter College School of Social Work as a guest speaker many times, educating the graduating class of social workers. But she then had to make a tough choice. Stop being who she was so she could be in the life of her siblings or continue to be who she was and enjoy her life. Yonce chose love forcing her to live as a plain Clothed Transgender. Many years later Yonce then transitioned back into who she was meant to be . She landed a Role on TLC's Hair Goddess. She has been in countless magazine articles surrounding her Activism. She has been an Author , She currently Holds a paid Modeling contract. She is a spokes person for Prevention Access Campaign U=U, She helped create a public health survey the first of its kind Owning Hiv, The Fight and the Young adults ahead. in partnership with MERCK.She landed a movie role currently airing on VICE TV outlets Cable station. And she is a peer navigator in New York City. She is a Public Speaker traveling the world to combat stigma This Girl does it all. " I wanted to come out of those dark places. Come out of the shame associated with me being transgender. Come out of those secrets that were hindering me to move forward in my greatness. come out of stigma. come out of that abusive relationship, come out of mental health stigma , come out of depression , come out of self hate, come out of Discrimination. I've seen and heard a lot in my life and been in many situations both positive and negative. but most of all i have come out of all that and now im here with this brand new talk show helping others to do the same. while on my journey i decided i no longer wanted to be silent. As The Host of The Come Out Talk show you can expect me to be Honest , Loyal , Give my Honest opinion, always keep it 1000% real, sometime laugh, sometimes cry, But most of all Come Out of those places i have been hiding in all my life. Your going to be shocked at some of the things you hear , You may laugh and you may cry . you may relate or you may Come out of the prejudices you may have yourself . This show is not only designed for me to come out but also for you to come out as well , It doesn't just speak to LGBTQI Gender non Conforming issues in the world but we are going to Dig Deep. I myself have placed judgement on people places and things because lets be real no one who walks this earth is perfect i hope to learn about different topics and change my perspective and come out of my personal discrimination. ( Because we all have them ). I have been in the public eye ever since i was a young teen. I was born a male who always knew i was in the wrong body. On my journey through out life i set out to change this, but the circumstances i faced and the people in my life , did not allow for me to do this. As a male i accomplished many goals for myself but i was living my life as a plan clothed transgender person. I was so unhappy making many bad choices in life . among those were becoming a male p**n star . becoming a youth pastor, and turning to drugs to cope with the life long pain that was cast upon me. But i came out of all of that and i am here today to share my story through this talk show. Consider it like a hand book. I have walked a unique road and i have a lot of accurate Real information to contribute to society. I will no longer live my life in a silent experience. I have a voice and its time you hear exactly What i have to Say. This is The Come Out Talk Show.

Dear Diary

I did it is born.

My legacy lives on .

Dear Diary,

Something ive never done was write a Poem so here is one.

I PRAYED FOR YOU

I Prayed for you
when we first met I wanted to bless our friendship and bring peace to our hearts.

I prayed for you
when you dissappointed me for the first time.

I prayed for you
When you lashed out at me and called me all those horrible names.

I prayed for you
When that girl called my phone and said she had been seeing you.

I Prayed for you
Everytime you lied to my face.

I prayed for you
When you Hit me over and over again.

I prayed for you
everytime you cheated on me.

I prayed for you
when you stole from me.

I prayed for you
When you lied on me.

I prayed for you
When you felt like giving up.

I prayed for you
when you were sick.

I prayed for you
while you was homeless.

I Prayed for you
When it was time for me to leave.

I prayed for you
When you said I hate you and i wish you were dead.

I Prayed for you
While you were sexually assulting me

I prayed for you
when we got a devorice.

I Prayed for you
While you were in jail.

I prayed for you
Hopeing you would free yourself from hell .

And all this time while i was praying for you
I FORGOT TO PRAY FOR MYSELF.🙏🏽

Dear Diary,

I know it's been a while since I've written. But that's because I've been super duper busy.

Well as you know I have moved into my own condo high rise apartment. And it is beautiful, every morning I watch the sun rise over the city I can see the George Washington Bridge from my window. That's so cool 😎.

I also have a little baby Skittles he is a multipoo with the cutest little face, I can't stop kissing him. He goes everywhere I go and he is demanding and spoiled, just like his mom. 😒.

I'm in love with my new life. I'm in love with myself. I've never been in love with myself I've always just kinda liked myself, tolerated myself.
This time that I have spent alone really made me make better decisions and choices in life.

While I've worked on myself I also figured out how to survive with out self harm. I'm in therapy and it's going great. I go in there drop all my s**t, wipe my ass and Go. 💩 lol.

My activism has picked up. My contracts are coming in monthly. When I say contracts that means work. I am a model 🌟😏. I'm also a public speaker. A recovery coach, a seeking safety counselor, and I will appear in a movie this June on Vice TV that's a cable network they also have films on netflixs. 😆👊.

I'm no stranger to magazines and Television. I was on a show Hair Goddess on TLC in 2017 and I've been in countless magazines since I was a male. But this movie im in means so much to me because I laid it all out there and im proud of this accomplishment.

You know now that I've freed myself from the chains that were weighing me down. I feel a sense of calmness over my life. I created a talk show that has come to life. And while im comfortable I will not get too comfortable because I've got a lot of work to do.

No more nasty bathrooms. No more disgusting mattress. No more calling me sir. No more smelling stale crack smoke in the hall ways. No more fights in the hall way. No more growling stomach bc im so hungry. No more hating myself. No more people bullying me. No more talking down to me. No more self hate. No more discouraging thoughts. No more breaking mirrors bc I hate to see myself. No more hiding pretending I don't exsist. No more drama. No more attempted su***de.

Remember a few dear diarys ago I said im a proud owner of a hand mirror.
Well now im a proud owner of many mirrors. I'm absolutely in love with the reflection stairing back at me .💓💗💗💓

God bless me 🙏🏾. And God bless the reader for taking time to get to know me 💞💞💗

Welp here comes skittles gotta run 😊